One day you will find this. Maybe it will serve as a reminder or maybe it will bring peace in the morning. You have lived a life not without struggles and hardships. You secretly fear that you have damaged yourself internally and you will never repair it. Your favorite thing is listening to old records like Frank Sinatra. Your biggest dream is to live in a small southern town with a dog and a cat and draft short stories with wild complexities but simple lines. God can never guarantee you a spouse, but love can find you at any time. Maybe it has now. Know that you wrote this one Saturday evening when nobody had really texted you or talked to you all day. On a day where you told a group of strangers that if you had been a better daughter your mom would still be alive. This was written two days after you sat in a shower and wondered what you had left. I hope by now you know that you are worthy of everything you have earned. There are few things that are guaranteed in life and one of those things is that through all your pain, you have endured. Depression is a real thing. It is something that takes hold of us, but you have endured. You are not a person just living with depression. That does not define you. You are a person that has lived through pain and has still felt joy. I hope you know that now, as you read this and no matter what you are experiencing. I hope this finds you well. When you sit this note down, I wish the sun to be shining. For there not to be a cloud in the sky. For the air to be still and quiet. And for you to remember you wrote these words because so many times you needed a slither of forgiveness that someone did not provide. Even still, you continued to lay your heart on the line. The love you continue to give to yourself, to this day, is invaluable. It will get you to the end.
Sincerely, K
