Yes, the depression!
I know you were all right flourishing day by day just the day before it all began. I know you were doing great with all your heart, I know you were a happy, fun-loving soul just the day before it all started. I know you were not aware of it, I know you didn’t ever expect it, I know you were living happily, comfortably in your shell just the day before it shook you inside.
I know It wasn’t easy for you to continuously overanalyze yourself. It wasn’t easy for you to handle your surroundings thinking over it a lot. It wasn’t easy for you to have a soothing sleep even when you were desperately craving for it. It wasn’t easy to have a look at yourself in the mirror when you didn’t want to face even yourself. It wasn’t all easy when you were taking your meals not because you were hungry but to survive. It wasn’t easy for you to feel like losing control over everything. It wasn’t at all easy to tackle with all of them alone.
IT WAS NOT EASY AT ALL, I KNOW. I REPEAT!
But darling, do you think it is okay to just go through it not saying anything? Do you think it is all fine letting you go away from yourself doing nothing? Do you think that is what you really came for? Do you think the way you have been continuously enduring it all, is the only way to get over it?
Why didn’t you ever think about spitting it all out? Why didn’t you ever have a thought of sitting with someone sharing what’s all there in your mind? Why didn’t you ever have a thought of just hold on for some time and take a step ahead just when something is pulling you behind no matter what. I know it gets more difficult then. But darling! Why didn’t you ever have a feeling to jump out of it now and blooming again just like old times? Don’t you think there is nothing in this world more important than the care for the self?
Darling, I know it’s not easy for you to be open about it, so take a pause but do not hesitate. I know it’s not easy for you to accept it all so take some time but do not abdicate. I know it’s not easy for you to even stand tall again but baby, you’ll have to pull yourself up to rise and shine even brighter again.
Why not let your heart pour out? Why not let your mind speak? Why not let the other people also be aware of it? Why not let our hands be clenched together and work it out together? Why not let ourselves be there for each other to grow through it, starting all over again?
LET’S BE HONEST TO EACH OTHER. TAKE A DEEP BREATH.
LET’S BE OPEN ABOUT IT. LET’S TALK, I REPEAT!